Sunday, November 23, 2008

the marvel of I.D.E.A

I keep staying in relationship with all the wrong reasons
I always felt for the charm, the brain, the look or the personality
I never knew the meaning of ‘love is blind’

until...

This time around
I pray hard that it is only a crush
That soon will go away
Even i do realise i am 25 already

Please...please...and please
I hope this feeling only temporary

He is nothing that i hope i would fall into
And honestly, i am not
It just crossed my mind a few time
The idea me being with him

Tu pun da buat aku sakit kapala

Friday, November 21, 2008

discovering

hana baru sedar...

even im loud
even i can be an annoying pusher
even im like this

hana takkan berebut
i do not have the energy
let it come naturally

i am a fighter
but not in that way
i just dont

sighhhh.......

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

tagged

THE SELF
[01] Real name: xxxhana
[02] Nickname: hana
[03] Status: Single but Not Available..
[04] Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 25
[07] High School: SMK Seri Selayang
[08] College: UiTM Shah Alam
[09] Height: 5'5" / 165cm
[10] Weight: BMI 21.1 so, agak2 la
[11] Do you like yourself: there's a parts of me dat i wud like to change
[12] Piercings: satu kiri satu kanan
[13] Right or left: kanan
[14] Are you a freak : hell no
[15] Hair: hijo
[16] Skin: melayu
[17] Allergic: xde allergic2
[18] What are you doing now: jwb tag!!?
[19] What will you doing 1 hour later: send out email
[20] What will you doing 10 years later: a wife and ibu hopefully(insyaallah) plus pekerja kerajaan lg kot

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents/family: mother, father, kakak, adek kadang2 kawan
[22] Siblings(included you): 5
[23] Eldest: kakak
[24] Youngest: adek
[25] Love/hate your family: love-hate la (standard one), not dat i hate them till want to kill em all.

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: x la berapa sure
[27] If yes, who is he/she: tu la..
[28] Who you want he/she to be: good husband,father and good khalifah(poyo..)
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: hurm..
[30] Ever woo boy/girl: a boy
[31] Anyone woo you before: xde..xde...
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: ade
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: x cukup bg kaseh sayang
[34] Ever argue with your other half: x pernah hohoho
[35] You with your other half since: no specific date.tetibe je aku dgn die
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: straight alhamdulillah
[37] Reasons you love your other half: rasa hebat kot..
[38] You and your other half in which stage: nak tp xnak
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: -
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: pernah..mesti pernah

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: yg betol2 bkn main2 punyer-fiza
[42] Your first enemy: bond
[43] The friends you love the most: some guy
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): ade la
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: not dat beautiful..but sure have the most pleasant face to me-fiza
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: dat 'some guy' tu kot
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: yg mcm mangkuk
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: yg hisap rokok x pikir org lain
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: pernah..pernah...
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: tidak...tidak...
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: tgk la dl aku nk buat aper
[52] If your friend betray you: pun tgk la dl
[53] If your friend woo your lover: sukati die.jodoh maut kerja tuhan
[54] If your friends fall in love with you: let bygones be bygones
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: been there..done that


THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: once upon a time... hurm..
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: most of them..bwuahahahaha
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: some of them
[59] Always late to school/college: pernah jer
[60] Your class: aper ntah, x paham
[61] You love your seniors: entah le
[62] Senior who you love the most: pun entah
[63] Your classmates good/bad: sedang2 saja
[64] Excellent result classmate: pun sedang2 saja
[65] Laziest classmate: malas nak layan

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: me
[67] Stupid people: org yg x tau nk back off
[68] Good looking people: confident
[69] Ugly people: yg mcm mangkuk
[70] Funny people: bley la
[71] Cute people: unique
[72] Bad people: ambik kesempatan
[73] Honest people: his feeling written in his face
[74] Acting people: xnak nyusahkan org lain.kot...!!?
[75] You are what kind of people: confident!!bwuahahaha

THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes..it tells u everything
[77] Hugs or kisses: dua2...tamak ok
[78] Shorter or taller: yg sedang2 saja
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: xnak...plan ok!!planning is so important
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: apekebende soklan nih
[81] Listener or talker: it works in both way
[82] Romantic or rich: both!!
[83] Good husband or Good Father: both!!!!!aku mmg tamak ok

THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 27-28 insyaallah (tgk tahap kegatalan)
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3 kot
[86] Career: hurm..
[87] Salary: cukup la...x mintak duit org lain
[88] Retirement age: x tau..tgk tahap kemalasan nanti
[89] Properties value: bley la.nanti lhdn keja lak
[90] Wishes: yg baik2 ajer..ameen