i am no fun anymore

Seems like i lost my sense of humor. In conversations hilang apatah lagi in writing.

Waah...i am no fun at all

I had all d time in d world last looong wiken. And all i did was eat.ate.eating and........oooh...eating.

Then im complaining about getting fat.not anything thin.thinner or......slim.

Aaargh......i hate myself

Pastu aku tortured my mind thinking about so many things.

1. Ade la jugak baiknya im not being selected for the DPA on dis coming march. Sanggup sgt ke aku nk mengadap 30minggu tu sedangkan br je rase torture 2 hari satu mlm penangan kinabalu.golek2 bwk senapang, lari2 bwk hos bomba, kayak sg perak pusing satu pangkor, ngendong tong gas.uish...lupakan.azam aku since lps trn ari tu xnk buat any physical xtvts utk 2 bln. So kalo aku g DPA bln mac x ckp la 2 bln puasa aku.he3

2. As the result plg awal aku DPA pn around oct which mean harapan aku nak kawin akhir thn ni agak pudar.so x tau lagi la akhir thn kat tahun yg manenye aku ni akan kawin

3. Mental checked my to do list since written nye xde kat dpn mata. Quiet a number jgk da bley ticked. Still d most crucial one xde nmpk byg lagi akan setled buat masa ni

4. So aku buat pros n cons ape jd in case ade la benda2 tu yg x ber-tick

a) In case aku x kawin2 lagi by d age of 35 mayb i sud consider adoption.i was thinking tahap toleransi aku skrg kat mane so it might be i would ended up marrying any tom dick or harry whom i think can be a gud father to my kid(s) rather than being swept away by d idea of love. Besides, love wont put d food on the table.

b) Still in case i got lucky n got married by then i need to reassess my current job. Sampai tahap mana aras toleransi aku utk buat keje ni. Its not a bad thing, really. Utk 2 thn ni pun da ajar aku byk bende. I just not very sure whether it is really a job dat i would like to do for the rest of my working life. Org kg ckp i havent found my niche n my passion yet.

c) I need to do somthng about things yg sepatutnya aku da bley tick but i didnt sbb aku berada di situasi yg sipi2 je lagi nk jd (then i know not everything is under my control)

5. I should stop hurting people unnecessarily esp when i know they are being nice with me with a good faith. I do not want get srike by lighting.

6. Ade satu bende aku nk tambah kat to do list tu and i plan to do it within this year insyaallah b4 oct incase aku kena g DPA lak nanti.so i should start my survey right away .

7. I need reassess my mgt on financial thingy


Tgk, aku bc ayat aku kat atas ni pun aku da rasa bosan.wallawei, i am no fun anymore


i like this pic.seems like every fiber being are having fun

p/s:nak kucing~