it has been 2 years........

since i joined government service(s)

3 musketeers

when i refer to this one, seems there are some progress involving them.
apparently, its hard to say that it involves me


1.the first guy ended his 7 years relationship with this gorgeous lady
and he keep hitting for a date that i keep ignoring since i do not want to be his 'rebound' item

2.i stop communicating with the second guy since i cant bear with the rasa bersalah

3.i keep despise the third guy and reluctant to have any connection with him

i know i was hoping that i could be his exception and deep inside i knew all along which one i lost my heart to.

Most of the time, its not an easy thing to just open up your heart and talk about your worries with people.
Even those people that u consider very dear to your heart.
It just....




hard

hating SAPURA

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aku rase mcm blog ni da jd tempat aku curse x tentu pasal da

mcm gampang ok!!

last week masa aku nk book parking ckp awal sgt.kabar kat die nxt week on monday pun xpe
ari ni aku kol nak book parking da ko ckp full pulak
jaga2 ko.kalo aku tau muka ko aku jeling sampai nak kluar bijik mata aku

macam sial!!

x pasal aku nk kol blk satu2 panel aku ckp parking xdak.
kalo dorg xnk dtg sebab xde parking mcm mane?
ish....malas la nk pikir

im being dramatic this morning. reason(s) being

1.tgh busy..still, mcm la org lain x bz kan
biarkan aje aku ni~

2.i heard something regarding him.seroiusly, i hate myself for feeling like this.im trying being reasonable over here

a)we always on conflicts over lack of sincere devotion to our 'relationship' (as if we have any..).and its from both parts.masa aku beria die tunjuk hidung belang die.masa die beria i just dont believe in him

b)i despise his inability to work through conflict

so this is it.he will never be someone that i hope he would be.it will never work out with him.why la...budak x semenggah tu jgk yg ko ingat2kn hana ooi...

so i told him

I want you to know that you're the man I want to want but apparently its just not rationale for me to be with you.i want a healthy relatonship.bye

3.i hate it when im feeling tide up with my work.sigh~

i hate my life as a whole this morning!!!

HOW CAN I POSSIBLY SPARE MY TIME FOR OTHERS WHEN IM BARELY HAD TIME FOR MYSELF!?

ape ingat aku ske ke marah2
penat tau tak

ptg ni i lost my temper kat ofis nih
ni hah dgn customer tru d fon
rude hah!

aku geram tau tak
mintak tlg skali aku da tlg
bl aku da tlg mintak tlg aku undo ape yg aku da tlg plak
pastu mintak tlg bende lain plak
ingat aku nih ape!

aku cube la mengikhlaskan hati sesungguh mungkin
tp ko mmg la carik pasal
tak sudah2 nak mintak favor

come on la
wake up
this is a real world
skit2 gn ayat mintak tlg
mintak maap encik, ini bkn bawah bidang kuasa saya

sigh...i just dun like to talk about my work tau
aku takut kalo aku terlepas ckp je
same je la mcm dl kat bank sbb bank act
ni sbb akta rahsia rasmi
to be precise
i just dun talk about my work
but today, i break d rule