lempang budak

ok
pagi2 ni cek email sume bagai
terus rase nk lempang budak
bukan budak bdk2 kecik tu
walopun aku sedar sesedar2nyer aku nih garang melampau
idak la kejam sgt nk lempang budak
budak yg aku nk lempang ni
budak yg da x berapa budak
bukan anak dara lagi pun
baye2 aku
cume apparently aku nih masih anak dara
ntah bile nak hilang daranya

tak kira la ko kat penjuru benua mana pun
pikir la masak2 dl b4 bg statement
aku yg tumpang hangin
ko x tau kabar berita tu satu hal
tapi sebab ko yg mcm tu la org xde ati pun nk share berita dgn ko
huh

there is so~ many things happen around but i dun wanna write about em

walopun mungkin aku perasan sorg2
its too personal
xde ati nak taip
xnak la kalo2 org lain bace
(cet!!mmg sungguh perasan sorg)

things that i dunno, i don care!!!

i always say dat i know wat am i doing tapi betol ke aku tau!?

curik gambar iza
ok
bunyi mcm seyes je
sbnarnyer idak la sgt pun

slalu jer jadi bende nih

hana slalu rase hn berada ni situasi
'the potential on being d other women'
nak ckp kronik idak la pun
since most of the time i realized it in d very beginning
at the initial stage

but
at the age of 25 (almost 26 in few more mths)
it makes me wonder

sampai bile
sampai bile aku nak lari
on each time when i realize there is potential on me being the other women
i run
i ran
im running

kalo d other party tu someone else's husband
harus la aku lari kan!?

wat if, he is not
not a husband
but someene else's man
or boyfriend
sud i snatch him

bukan la nk ckp aku ni baik sgt pun
it just that ive seen d damaged done
so as a senses human with two legged and alive
aku tercongak2 la jugak
seboleh mungkin mintak la dijauhkan sgt2

but, d guy seems so promising
he's not prefect
but he do have d quality dat im looking into for my other half

ok
esen ini kedengaran sgt mushy mushy

mesti aku malu nk bace blk dikemudian hari

it just make me thinking
arent i suppose to fight for love
to fight for my happines
was it appropriate to hurt other's women heart in order to let me hepi

ok rase awkward da
i do sense something fishy
in d way he look@me
hana bukan stakat perasan ok
seram ok

he dont even know d other side of me
u wont like me if u do
ya Allah tentukan yg terbaik utk hana

p/s:kalo cam gini gayanyer
betol la kot x kawen aku nih
nak anak wei~~!

Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD)

pagi2 sampai ofis da plan cantek punyer
ari ni nak settle paper utk miting
bwk kuar sume fail n docs
tibe2 teringat
alamak lupe nk cek email
bukak la email
respond sane respond sini
nampak pulak si aziz lalu dpn bilik

me:ajis!!
aziz:wei, ko da tgk paper
me:cite ape?
aziz:ala pasal tut(disclosed heheh..)
me:kat ne?
aziz:ade kat utusan.cube surf(msk bilik terus duduk)

terus surf
ting tong ting tong dgn ajis
borak sane borak sini
en rashid pun lalu

aziz:eh en rashid!!

aziz settle2 hal die
terus teringat
'alamak!lupe nk antar memo kat ompd'
*ompd=IT/teknikal unit

buat2 memo
g antar kat ompd
terserempak dgn bos
terus panggil msk bilik ajak diskusi
tong tang tong tang
lunch hour sampai

solat toilet
pas lunch hour dpt fon kol
settle sane settle sini
duduk kat meja balik
nampak segala fail+docs utk buat paper miting
waaaaaa......aku x sentuh satu pun lagi

terus terpikir ADD
pegi wat blog lak
uish...giler aku nih
balik lambat la jwbnyer

i have reason(s) to despair but i choose to be cool

i wanna be nothing and be happy

huh!!!
pagi2 lagi aku da rase miserable
terok betol
niat di hati nk pose.ari nih isyrak mikraj
set alarm nk bangun sahur...haram...
pukul 7 sudahnyer aku bangun
sampai ofis pun ngam2 sipi nk 830
tu kire mujur le jln x jam

pastu torturediri dgr lagu2 terseksa
adoi la
ni la msk nxt phase for 2009
aku ni kalo ikutkn tahun da consider 27 la
even by birthdate am not even 26 yet
mungkin la aku ni tua sorg2 dgn kuceng 2, 3 ekor di sebuah apartment di pinggir kota
terok sgt da pemikiran aku nih

wei...
nak anak wei!!!!!


Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere long the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so